is with slight indifference that I write this long overdue explanation
about abandoning raceplay, mainly for my own closure.
Other things have kept me busy but when I came back from Chicaco in March....
other thoughts had already taken over my mind.... a whole new world that’s
been grateful, thankful and appreciative of my presence... where I can
make real differences in the lives of others.
That’s one thing that I never felt raceplay truly provided. I wanted
it to but I don’t think it ever did.
It really started when one nigger I had written off wanted to come back
in my life. I had written him off for well disrepect (ALL of this comes
down to disrespect). I tried hard but I didn’t have it in me to
EVER forgive him for his actions... there was nothing he could have done
to make up for it. WHich sent my mind spiraling to ALL the times that
I’ve put myself out there and gotten lied to, lied to, ignored,
ghosted which all equals disrespect. These are from niggers who say they’re
into it blah blah blah... makes no sense to me why they’d make this
I was really old school with my style of raceplay.... not 100% traditional
old guard ways but I respect the sanctity of a traditional master/slave
RELATIONSHIP and many of the so called “raceplayers” out there,
this was just a passing fetish.I don’t know, maybe they were too
conflicted internally about accepting themselves as a nigger & that’s
what leads to ghosting, internal conflicts, lying, whatever. All in all
it’s too little too late. I was SO PASSIONATE about raceplay, racial
superiority and the lifestyle and that made me vulnerable. I am a product
of my experiences and yearning for raceplay made me frustrated, angry
at niggers, annoyed, alone with my thoughts.
never been happier than I am right now... it was gradual.... it had probably
been a month before I realized that raceplay wasn’t in my thoughts
anymore & greater things have replaced it. And the thing is... I didn’t
miss it. I never fully realized my potential in raceplay & I wish
I had tried harder in hindsight. It was a good run
RIP Raceplay Summer 2012 - March 2018
still make raceplay videos when
I find models that shoot it of course. You can download
I ONLY UPDATE MY RACEPLAY TUMBLR
BLOG SO FOLLOW & BOOKMARK
So I've actually been making some custom private raceplay videos for niggers
that have been requesting them: www.customs4u.com/studio/5420/
NOTE! You can also contact
me directly & ask for a custom video to get a small discount via
Publicly humiliating nigger Willie J roman III
So I'm a pretty private person & I don't share a lot of what my vegas nigger & I do as well as other things I get up to in my life, but I will share with you a day from Fetishcon 2014 where the stupid nigger above ( nigger willie j roman III from Detroit, MI ) CATFISHED ME & embaressed me in public & how I dealt with it. I'm sharing this with you because it'll probably most likely turn you on if you're a nigger.
So this stupid ugly old nigger basically catfished me with old pics & blurry pics of himself for months. I had no idea he'd look like he did & he also had some fucking weird physical handicap which HE DID NOT TELL ME ABOUT. I'm ALL for being honest & he totally wasn't honest about anything that he talked about ( I have no dislike for people who are actually handicapped). This was before I owned my local vegas nigger. We had been chatting for awhile & he had a great imagination about plantation slavery & made me believe he was ready to come to Fetishcon 2014 & be my slave nigger 24/7 for 3 days . There were other niggers I wanted there but realistically he was the one who could get the time off work & financially make it. ok great. We planned our outfits for each night (talked about in a previous post) and did a bunch of planning, etc etc.
So when I picked him up, I was very unhappy about being catfished but I tried to make the best of the situation. hey at least I would have someone assisting me while I was shooting right??? WRONG. First he couldn't listen to any instruction I gave him, not even the most simplest basic task. Then the more I'd repeat myself, it was like he'd TRY HARD to defy anything I said. Seriously?? When I give instruction I try to be as clear & concise as possible & I expect you to execute it.
Fast forward to that night at the Meet & Greet party. He's dressed in plantation slavery clothing, his name tag says “N WORD” and he's in chains (pic above). Not only is he defying almost all my basic instructions & commands, he SMILES IN THE PIC ABOVE & when people would come up to chat he would loudly tell them “I'm just roleplaying! I'm not really into this” WHAT… THE… FUCK…. after hours of frustration & public embaressment over having this pathetic excuse for a nigger I finally snapped. I pulled his chains downward with such force that he fell forward. I made him kneel despite him trying to resist both physically & emotionally & I started berating him loudly & kicking him on his side, his arms & kicking him on his thighs. Ophelia, who was standing across the room, swears she saw me kicking him in the head & this is what she tells people to this day. I was so fucking furious at that point. Then a male midget who was watching comes over & wants to kick him too! Yay, nigger kicking party! Anyone who saw this I guess assuming that I was a domina/dominatrix, which I am not, lol. so that was annoying!!! No I don't want to whip you… lol
So I finished hanging out with my friends & then proceeded to walk the 3 blocks through downtown Tampa, back to my hotel. I dragged him so violently through downtown while VERY LOUDLY verbally berating him & slapping his face. I'm pretty sure I spit on him as well. I demanded an explanation to his insolence & defiance to which I received silence, which angered me even more. There was a busy downtown bar with an outdoor patio section & I'm sure everyone saw the entire thing; the dragging in chains & the humiliation, etc etc. I have NO CLUE what their reactions were as I was too pissed off to care or notice, not that I would care on a good day. The best was when I dragged him through the hotel lobby & the staff were all colored folks. LOL. Anyways, the next day he wrote some fucking email about how he talked to God that night & he was embarassed with all those people watching him & he did his people a disservice, he repents his sins & blah blah blah. I don't give a fuck. You wasted a LOT of my time, my efforts, and also a spot that another nigger slave could have taken. You fucked up my Fetishcon trip. I had to pretty much ignore him for the next 3 days because I'm there to shoot content for my fetish sites & I did what I came there to do, just like I do every year for the past 7 years. He couldn't even assist me in shooting because of his inability to listen to instruction & his physical handicap that I didn't know about.
So I try to leave the past as it is. I told him never to contact me again & I never contacted him. My hubby gave me a lecture that I should have video skyped with him first & to have a talk with my local nigger about what he's going to get into with me at Fetishcon 2015 next month & that he understood what it will be like to be debuted as a nigger in public. Ok, great. Did that. So guess what?? Out of nowhere, fucking nigger willie J roman emails me saying he's going to be in Vegas soon & if I would want him to service Ophelia & I!?!?!?! WHAT… THE… FUCK… you don't fucking mock me boy. Hmmm I wonder what his wife will think of all of this…? She had no clue because he lied to her about everything.
The thing is… if he wasn't ready to be debuted as a public nigger that's fine… don't lie & insist you are. If you started freaking out in public, say the safe word & then communicate it to me & I'll stop what I'm doing. I'm a fully reasonable & empathetic human being, but not when I'm taken advantage of & made a fool.
Just letting you know that I normally update the Tumblr blog with all my newest videos instead of updating here. So just bookmark the Tumblr blog & clip store & you're pretty much good to go in terms of keeping up!
Also here's some more captioned
raceplay photos for you good niggers!
More racial humiliation captioned photos for you nigger haters, nigger lovers & just plain ole niggers!
WHY I LOVE NIGGERS MP3 - Another lil free gift for my niggers where I list off all the great things I love about negro men including your big lips, nappy hair & dick gorilla dicks! Download it from the link & enjoy. It's still a really weird thought that men are listening to this & jacking off.... so in my mind I need to accept this & be OK with it... just gimmie a minute to let this all sink in & then I'll make more as this is super fun! What would you like to hear next?
NIGGER WORKOUT MP3 -
An audio gift for all you poor orphaned NIGGERS with no owners here, who love to workout & need some extra motivation of being reminded WHY you need to workout. I hope you like it! My voice is really horrible & grossssss….. ewwwww. Just ignore how gross my voice is & make sure the speakers are turned DOWN when you listen to this. It'd be hilarious if it was blaring at the library. I enjoyed making it as it was really hot!
Raceplay for Chinks! Hey, even asian girls don't want to date you because of your small cocks. They much prefer dating white or black men since they're so much more well endowed, but maybe she'll use you to do her homework & buy you gifts. Download Siren Thorn making fun of your small asian penis!
The newest raceplay
trailer featuring Ophelia calling you Nigger! If you like Ophelia I'll
be filming with her again soon so please EMAIL
me your fantasies you want to see with her. Yes, more foot worship...
what else? Any specific scenarios?
I always forget to post about new video updates here... but I'm
on TUMBLR if you wanna see all the trailers now! I usually upload
them there first. Anyways, here's the download links to download TRAILER
2 & TRAILER
Missy (me) invites
Cheyenne Jewel to check out her dads slave ship & it sure is smelly
in there with all these sweaty negros all caged up in there. Hey, we even
brought some bananas to tease these big monkeys with… super fun
times! Maybe some of these negros might wanna jack their big negro cocks
off after seeing women for the first time in weeks.
this video clip now!
first 16 of these raceplay videos on the C4S site is on DVD for only $32
via paypal. Hit me up
if you wanna get it. This includes all the ones with Livvy rose &
I’m back with the lovely fetish model Cheyenne Jewel in this super
fun nigger slave inspection & POV jerk off clip. Missy owned you first
but you’re coon ass is too stupid to follow instructions for her
dads shipping business so she figured she’d sell you to Cheyenne
to be a field nigga! The girls have fun inspecting your whole body from
top down, including that nice thick nigger dick you got packing under
DOWNLOAD THIS RACIAL
HUMILIATION JOI NOW!
I did another lil batch of filming more raceplay videos & this one
is with the lovely fetish model Cheyenne Jewel as a slave owning cowgirl
who's looking for her escaped Afircan-American (yeah nigger boy! that's
you!) slave who's hiding behind the haystacks. Man, you gotta love when
you actually get to film on a farm where there's real haystacks poking
me in the butt. She finally finds you and whips you with her thin cane.
Then she drags you back to your caged area & comes back with a nice
big black dildo strap on... and you know where that's gonna go soon...
hahahaha (happy belated halloween guys!!! I love you all!) DOWNLOAD
THIS POV RACEPLAY CLIP
For those of you who like pictures and not just raceplay videos... I made
some fun race
play captioned photos for you to enjoy! They basically say the same
things as they do on the video with some variation. Be sure to save them
all & I'll come out with some new ones next week!
Oh here's a
fun one with not one, two but three girls to whip you and call you names...
You answer an ad looking for a black waiter & when you get there,
the white lady looks you up & down & tells you you have to wear
a white loin cloth for this gig. You need the cash so you do. She's entertaining
a couple of girl friends & they seem to think they're better than
you & start using racist terms, calling you Nigger & other totally
un-PC names for black folks. They talk about slavery & think that
you should be taught a lesson so that you know your place in life, which
is beneath all non-black women! They use their belts to whip you in turn,
calling you names & hardcore humiliating you for being black. The
host, Ophelia, thinks it'd be funny if she enslaved you again, so that
she gets free help in the house... the asian thinks it's a fantastic idea
since they love free stuff!! They walk about how they're going to treat
you in your new life & how fun it is & kind of erotic it is to
WHIP your coon ass! DOWNLOAD
THIS FUN PARTY WHIPPING CLIP!
OF FILMING RACEPLAY VIDEOS...
I'm just going to take this time during breakfast to rant a little bit.
I just came back from Fetishcon where I got to work with a lot of talented
hot fetish models for all my fetish sites. Now if you don't know... raceplay
is the one that is my actual kink so I'm VERY VERY picky about how the
acting is done & how the words are said. First of all, it's hard enough
to find girls who are willing to do it & feel comfortable with the
scenes & words since it will come through if they're not 100% cool
with the word nigger. Secondly, when I find someone who is down to shoot
this... they don't fully understand what type of mindset I want her (the
mistress) or the viewer to have. It's not about blatant hate or racism...
when I saw the words it's about kink & love... Is that really super
confusing? "Say the word Nigger with relish & love" and
they look at me like I'm an alien, LOL. Arghhhhhh... so I'm not very happy
with the clips I shot at Fetishcon but maybe you'll like em. I can't wait
to shoot more with Livvy (the blonde mistress in the scenes below) and
I'm also thinking about BEING IN THE SCENES MYSELF, just
so I can set the tone, pace & the story as I have such high expectations
when I start thinking of the little vignettes. The reason why I haven't
been in the videos is (other than I hate how I sound & look) I'm
an asian female. So would
the videos be still as good with an asian female in them?? I'll
leave that up to you...
Remember. all videos you download on clips4sale are yours to keep with
no DRM. If you have any race play ideas in that twisted nigger brain of
yours that'll make that fat nigger cock hard, just let me know!
22, 2012 - WELCOME TO MY RACE PLAY VIDEOS
Welcome to my TABOO RACEPLAY site... if you're a black male who find the
words Nigger, Coon, Darkie coming out of the mouth of nice lookin white
women turning you on... if you've ever had plantation slave sexsual fantasies...
if the thought of getting owned by a white (or other non-black) woman
using your race as a humiliation factor... get on board! I started filming
my own racial humiliation clips because I found the other ones for sale
on CLIPS4SALE were
very grainy, solo webcam models who don't fully understand the fetish
but just yell a bunch of racist terms to the camera & not providing
a story. I wanted real life stories in a modern age, to set a scene at
least that could be somewhat believable... at least you could wish for
it anyways. Clips4sale is a site that allows anyone to produce & sell
their own fetish videos to download. So if you've never seen that site
before, just add the clips to cart, pay for them & then you download
them to keep forever!
Order a custom, private raceplay video with ME!
Cam2Cam avail as well
LIST OF MY OTHER WEIRD FETISH SITES THAT I OWN. FUN!